Once Again

Back to blogging.Am I Awake?

I want ME to change this time. I know I have been missing for ages from blogging. I’m always lazy to blog and I have no purpose to blog for. Instead, I do stuffs that are meaningless. Entertainment from Games, especially DOTA. A game that most boys plays this generation. Too much of this entertainment holds one back. It kills your time and your life.

PS: For those who don’t know much about the game, it’s a map from the game, Warcraft, Frozen Throne, that you play over and over again, except, you play it again with a different hero, different teammates and opponents. The task in the game is to destroy the opponent’s throne to win the game. That is where the addiction kicks in. An average duration to complete the game takes about 40 minute to 1 hour and 10 minutes.

This was where I saw myself as a useless person. Half of my Life was destroyed from that game. A game that only satisfies temporary when you win the game, it’s F***ing ridiculous.

Gamers;

Over & Repeating Entertainment = Lifeless, Wasted.

Now you readers know, what I been doing for these years, it really kills.

It was sad. Not to mention, there are other stuffs too, but I don’t think I want to touch on that.

My Amendment.

Well, I’m strongly inspired now. Most of them came from my surroundings. Before this, knowing many friends who are already decided what they want in their future and looking at me, still undecided yet. I saw in their eyes, many were just plain determined, some were so random, some were confident but not so sure, some were convinced from parents & friends, and a only few already knew what they really wanted. Same questions had thrown me a thousand times, “So what are you planning to do?”, “My son, Oh, he decided to take medicine, pursuing to be a Doctor,” “Oh I’m going to do Business” “I am going to master in English.” “I am going to do Law!” “mass-com” “And me?” I don’t know. I was in the state of total lost, but not for long. I came out with options in my mind, first was piloting, second was hotel management, third was accountancy, forth was into cooking and the last was a last resort, following my dad’s footsteps to become an electrical engineer. It was a long process to actually and firmly and genuinely and properly decide a path from my options.

On the other hand, when it comes to this point when someone to come up to you, “I do look up high on you” seeing you’re capable in taking possessions of something, strikes in your mind. It’s a strong compliment which you’re not sure you may or may not deserve it. Why hesitate? Maybe because you think it might not been proven yet or maybe you’re in the process of improving that, it showed people to see the change in you. And that, it is a sign of respect you don’t want to dilute it. “Do not be proud before you achieve and prove something.”

To be Continue.

Kevin Michael – Ain’t Got you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Ike7XDe5c0

All I ever wanted was to love you
Girl I never meant to cause you pain
And I only have myself to blame
Now you're gone and I can't stop thinking of you
Every time I hear your name
I think of what I've done again and again


See I'm all alone tonight with just a memory
And baby you're a million miles away
I can't take another day
If I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
It just don't feel the same, no
If I ain't got you, oh
And if I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
Can't even feel the pain
No, if I ain't got you
(You, you, you, you,)

I remember when we were together
I remember how you used to say
There was nothing I could do to turn you away
I know, I know that things have changed forever
When I look into your eyes
All I see now is the tears in your eyes


I'm all alone tonight with just a memory
And baby you're a million miles away
I can't take another day
If I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
It just don't feel the same, no
If I ain't got you, oh
And if I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
Can't even feel the pain
No, if I ain't got you, you

If I could I would pick up the pieces of your broken heart
And put it back together
And I would, I would hold you in my arms until the hurting stops
And stay right here forever

All I ever wanted was to love you
Girl I never meant to cause you pain
And I only have myself to blame


If I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
It just don't feel the same, no
If I ain't got you, oh
And if I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
Can't even feel the pain (I need ya baby, want you baby)
No, if I ain't got you (I Gotta have you baby)
If I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
It just don't feel the same, no (It doesn't feel the same without you)
If I ain't got you, oh
And if I ain't got you, I ain't got anything
Can't even feel the pain
No, if I ain't got you

Baffled

Bad Timing or Pretending?

I’m getting no where,

Making excuses, that’s avoiding,

It made my performance has only been fair.

Thinking whether you could make the next move,

Wishing me is the first time you approached me,

And I appreciated it more than anyone else,

But it was just a wish, nothing more than that.

“Happy Birthday, you silly baboon (:”

It was comical in a way.

I've learnt another lesson.

Her intentions might only be to wish you. (and nothing more)

Happy Birthday to me.

22nd september. (:

I just want to say THANK YOUU SO SO SO MUCH FOR THE WISHES to my friends who wished me remembered my birthday. I sincerely appreciate them especially my dear friend, Ryan Lem Wye Liang who countdown just for my birthday =D well, my birthday was rather low profile for this year i would say. the most least meaningful so far.. i got my birthday cake only celebrated by my family, which was between dinner and tuition. But it was something than nothing.

I only received 2 presents which is from my family. The only presents i can appreciate. A birthday card, and a 300 bucks cash (:

Whats inside the birthday card?

"Dear Ed Vinn,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COMES TRUE. This is your SPM year and i wish you all the best! I hope you'll be able to show us a splendid results & make us proud. Study Smart & Excel!"

my caring brother, kor kor vincent.

"Dearest darling brother,

the pass you cannot change for it is history. but the future is still unknown.

Happy 17th Birthday to you! you are a year older now and I hope this year will be a starting year for you to correct your past mistakes and build your steps for a new beginning of tomorrow. You are a failure when you stop trying, but you are a winner yourself when you get up and keep trying because you are the one who will shape and mould your own future. Be wise, think rationally and act upon your vows that you have made. Be responsible for your own knowledge. A man's responsibility is greater than you ever know. Start building your own goals and plan them well for your future. Start now for you cannot turn back time. Time waits for no man.

Do not worry about love, for which it is infatuation for the time being. Do not chase and spend time for the unknown results that you will never know. Leave it to God. Love will come eventually when you least expected it. Do not hope but start MOVING towards your future! No one can help you unless you yourself."

the most momentous birthday card i ever received. i cried.

it was from my sister, the one who can understand me the most. cheh cheh ed na.

that is all about my birthday. Good Night.

Attention, all these Numbers are The 100 simple Secrets of Successful People (:

Something i would like to share of what i am reading.

Number 35! Lessons Can’t Threaten

Try to teach someone who doesn’t work with computers how much a computer might make their job easier. The most common reaction you find is stark reluctance. Why should anyone be against learning something that might make their job easier? Often it is because they fear that something that makes their job easier might one day take over their job.

Teaching is like asking someone to go on a trip. Just as on one is going to take you up on a invitation to travel on a trip from which they would never return, people will be reluctant to participate in learning about their own obsolescence.

When you try to teach anyone something new, you have to make it clear from the outset that destination is someplace we’d all like to go.

“What do I need that for?” Jack protested when his granddaughter asked why he didn’t use a computer. Jack had been a farmer all his life and had got along fine for fifty years without a computer.

His granddaughter gave him twenty examples of things he could do with a computer, such as keep track of his expenses of plan his growing schedule, and each time Jack replied that he been doing those things without a computer.

“What about the weather? What about reports you could get in an instant?”

Finally Jack relented, and a seventy-year-old farmer who had never so much as set his VCR was using a computer to track every aspect of his farm, Jack admitted old habits die hard. “I get stubborn, like anybody else. I don’t need every newfangled thing to do this job, but every now and then a piece of equipment does help.”

Feelings of self threat are the single biggest obstacle in gaining the willing participation of workers in new training programmes. Moreover, feelings of self-threat tend to spread among co-workers as they share their concerns.

Number 85. You need to know what you’re looking for.

What’s the right direction for you? What career would suit your needs and abilities and help you realized your goals?

What Most people Focus on when they ask these Question is finding out about careers, getting more information about what’s out there. But before you can make sense of What’s out there, you need to understand yourself.

The details of a job are trivial compared to the importance of knowing who you are, what you can do, and what you want to do.

Cindy Deppe owns one of the last drive-in cinemas in Pennyslvania. Cindy faces the same pressures that have driven almost everyone else out of the drive-in business. The land is too expensive to use for films. People don’t want to sit in their cars when they can sit in air-conditioned cinemas with reclining seats.

Yet Cindy is still in the business. In fact, she says she’s doing quite well.

Cindy has marketed her cinema to attract not only the traditional local family cinema crowd, but also the people who live hours away but are nostalgic for the old-time drive-in cinema.

One of her friends calls her a master of marketing. Cindy says, “Well, I guess there’s some truth to that, but I couldn’t sell something I didn’t love, and I love this place.”

Those who are indecisive about their career and long-term plans are 66 per cent less likely to feel that they understand their own identity.

Invincible Senses

A subtle sense impression,

You cannot see the proportion,

But you can feel its formation,

It’s an art of a motion.

I wonder, why I fall for you,

And you wonder was it really true,

I ponder a lot, I have found the answer,

But, too late! it has become a bearer.

“I’m in deep crush with her close friend,”

“Oh my god? Excuse me, but she’s her close friend!?”

“I knoww, that’s whyy”

“You got know whether you’re allowed to like her”

I felt like I was "Allowed" to like her,

Because it shows through her behavior,

I was swaying her gently, just to make sure,

Comfortable at first, faded sooner than later.

“How could he do this to me? I thought...”

“See! Just so you know”

“I’m done, No More.”

(I don’t want to talk anything bout him, anymore)

(I am sorry, you didn’t feel secure.)

I’ve learnt another lesson.

I Got Tagged by Jackie Chua Lyn Huaaaa!

1.the age u'll be on your next birthday?
17 =D 22nd September xD (coming sooon)

2. a) place u'll like to travel to?
Japan :D

2. b) place u'll like to be
Ski World, Korea (:

3. what is ur favorite food?
mum's special nasi lemak & foods from All Star Restaurant.

4. ur favourite drink?
ice blended mocha

6.ur favourite colour?
blue & green

7. ur favourite clothing?
seed/padini and bluetoms

8. ur favourite song?
Jack Johnson's & Justin Nozuka - Save him

9. whats ur favorite tv show?
punk'd & heroes

10. who's ur crush?
unknown

11 . where do u live?
Subang Jaya =D

12. what is ur nick name?
eddie

13. whats ur first job?
electrical engineering services

14. whats ur dream job?
pilot (captain)

15. whats ur worst habit.
day dreaming

16. what are you scared of?
being "BOOH" suddenly without knowing

17. what is the last thing u wanna do before u die?
sky diving :D (same as you :P)

i tag, whoever that reads my blog XD

Losing Trust

She caught my eye like a hit from a dart,

I saw her, I liked her right from the start,

Her reactions, her smile, was cute and smart,

I gently gave in pieces by pieces of my heart.

First talk on the phone,

I began to love your “aiyooo, so sadd”

Ghost stories we joint, I made her scared,

Embracing stories we shared, we both laughed like mad.

Adventure crossed upon me when you runaway,

Dramas were played, actions were taken,

A quest of hunting you,

A tremendous experience.

A first perfect impression,

Miracle of perfection,

Soon to be broken,

Screwed up, by mistake that’s been proven.

With small conflict occurred, we felt different,

When I texted you, “I like you”

Misunderstood that you comprehended, you dented,

Lost of hope, that was fast.

Hopes that was given in,

Had been pin into our hearts,

One gentle prick,

The pin easily falls off.

Sooner, friends spoke to you,

To be clear, that I have feelings for you,

You setback, “it’s a little too late?”

"I have changed my feelings I guess."

Maybe a little bit.

1^st august.

A simple question was fired to me,

Yet I cannot fcuking answer it,

Why? Because I still adores someone else.

Someone that I’ve been adoring for 1 ½ years.

I passed by a special pencil,

Wasn’t with enough cash,

Came back the day after,

Special pencil wasn’t there anymore.

Whispers came into her innocent ears,

You were pretending, and I was being ignored,

But knowing the greatest mistakes ever proven,

I am not great person without your touch anymore.

I’ve learnt my lesson.

I’ve lost your trust,

I’ve lost my self-respect,

I’m hanging by this moment,

I’m nothing without your touch.

I’m missing you every single day,

The nights, hours, minutes, and seconds,

I want you back again,

I needed you here by my side,

But you blew me away.

i'm sorry that i let you down.